It’s been so long since I’ve thought of you. I’ve done what I thought was great work at forgetting or at least pretending to not remember the great fun we had and the great friend you always were.
I’m happy still with my girlfriend and despite what this comes across as, I’m very grateful for everything Yulia has done for me in terms of helping me find peace with myself and my surroundings.
However, after hearing what I thought was you while walking through the park at the festival in town I did get a rush of emotion and was instantly taken back to the friendship we had.
The chances of this meaning much after the things I said and the actions that took place are very slim considering all the broken promises and empty plans. I just was astounded by how after so much time, I can be taken back by one person sounding similar to you. As well as an acknowledgement that I’m aware and have been aware of the friendship lost because of stupid actions.
Note: I need to stress to my friends on here and strangers, this is not to be taken as some form of wanting more despite my relationship with Yulia. This is nothing more than missing a great friend that holds a large portion of the person I’ve been working to become.
Here’s a bit of insider information for you;
You know all those great looking men you see walking down the street in their business clothes/suits. Yeah, the ones you see in the sun, on a nice summer day walking home from work with their Ray Bans on, hair slicked back. You may be standing there, eyeing him up, maybe even wondering whats under that suit of his. Wanna know a secret? It’s sweat. Nothing but a whole pool of sweat, literally engulfing his body all the way to his toes where it feels like he’s walking in a pool.
There isn’t anything sexy about us men in suits on a warm summer day. Nothing.